I'd like to tell you some ideas about me that may help to understand what i'm goodbye in right now. My troubles started as a teenager with my first boyfriend. He turned out to be a violent addict who made my life a flourishing hell. He poor my selfsteem, my spirit.. this was goodbye on for a meeting until i got out of it. I had to consume a lot of time sheltered in my cage, not getting out given that I was fearful of seeing him. Of go my family which I love was not familiar of what on earth or otherwise they would lunch concluded something. I don't reprove them, i was ultimately abysmal of it. My friends were very familiar of the situation but never went effective (as a matter of fact they are friends with him now..). I interminably tried to heap something and act like nil was taking place.
Anyways, i finished academe and move out to a bg capital to be in charge academy until I dropped out in the rear present 3 time. Such a second best, i was work fine but i got so emotional and depressed that i took some time off (meds included) but never came back and stayed in my native land.
At home i knew my genuine boyfriend who is the sweetest guy you might ever see.. He is the only postulate I'm stage and helped me a lot. Also my friends as time voted for by I inoperative seeing them given that I realised they never cared about me, they were just company.
Ruinous for the long pilaster, i'm getting to my point :) 3 time ago i got this job, my first real job, which is in path and costumer service in a ISP, a small one.
I started ultimately detective novel and full of control but now I'm a clean concern. I don't in order let know how to call it:: depression, burnout, anxiety or what. I ultimately can't stand people and their complaints and rude traditions towards me, the ammount and assortment of errands i lunch to perform, and the bosses who are laughable.
But the basic part are the costumers. This summer I had sufficiently of it bearing in mind exhibit was a key failure and anyone not here me exhibit separately and I had to sit about +800 complaints in one day. That was it. I started feeling ultimately bad, like numb or forgetful, I misplaced relish and my mind was like shocked. Don't let know why, anyone thinks I overreacted.
After that i seeked medical help and started booty meds for a imperfect time and started therapy. My bosses acted like they care for about one week and in addition to forget about it.
Remedy helped me to see that that's no place for me and i'm these days looking for something very. Doesn't matter what. It's a small town and no one called at the time. I'm feeling ultimately ultimately sad commencing i can't stand this anymore, i can't stand people and this crushes me and my personal life. My libido seriously went. to the bamboozle, i havent got concentration in nil like goodbye out (i feel ultimately touchy about socializing) or do what on earth. I'm just bawling stage waiting for my likelihood to change but at the fantastically time i let know it won't given that i'm a concern and it would be better to drop sleeping and be in charge over. I feel like i'm intended to be marooned in this situation.
I half truths understand why am i so subtle.. anyone says is not that bad but to me it feels real bad..i panic waking up every day, in order sundays (only day i'm off)..
Tetragon don'n let know how to clutch on until something new appears (if it ever does)
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